Dear Friend in Gym Today

dear my friend in gym today,
hi, my  name  is Emma . i know you didn't see me and mom around the corner getting changed.
we swam in class together. i was happy, laugh, because i love my new yellow bathing suit. mom has laugh, green one. my coach knows my issues on that front. perhaps i bothered you today in pool.
or maybe you just know very little about aspergers or autism. i will help you now.
in your defense many others are like you. perhaps you think people like me are mental like you said. not true. in your defense i know i often look odd laughing or dancing in swimming. i love water.
or maybe you think i behave inappropriately for people. in your defense i try to focus my body on maintaining my senses .in my defense your mean comments are not anything i would say.i laugh  cant by mouth any way. but mom tells me not to ever say means things. please learn about my disorder. that boy who shot his mom and those poor other people was sick in the head in a way mom says  we can't understand.
i will say hello to you next class. Emma

Mr. Ne'eman, I Want ToHelp You.

Yesterday I watched  something amazing on tv. I watched Mr. Ari Ne'eman speak on tv about people like me. He is a very smart language speaking autistic person. I can not speak with my mouth yet. Maybe I will mom says. I perhaps think, laugh, God decides.
I may never speak like Mr.Ne'eman but I believe I'm as smart as he is. laugh. I started to talk with my hand in september, 2010 because I didn't want to live in nursing group home. I was 18. For me Mr Ne'eman is a hero because he said girls are not normally diagnosed because of complexities. He understands me.
Today I am in a school that is not   for disabled. I have friends. None at my school calls me names or make fun of me. I belong there because I try hard everyday.
Mr Ne'eman must continue all he is doing. I am not the typical situation.  Mom is not. It shouldn't take Henry to make a school accept a smart  boy. I am getting a real diploma. but my friends might not.
Mr. Ne'eman, I want to help you any way I can.

Interviews with Mom

emma is with  me paige me mother.  i want to askpaige.me mom. have regret an autistic dauughter.

Paige:  Emma, I feel like you just punched me in the gut.  No, I have no regrets having an autistic daughter.  You are who you are and I love you more than you can ever possibly know.  A big regret I have is that when you were younger I allowed my anxiety to overwhelm our lives.

i asked because me autism is me most difficult and complivcated behavior and language  issue me.

we will continue....

My Dream For Tomorrow

I am doing perhaps my highest, most important dream tomorrow.  I am voting for the President of the United States.  I am excited but sad.  I feel both choices are not what I want them to be.  I wanted to believe in who I am voting for, not wishing for the best.  I am a girl who is lucky to have the communication skills that allow me this right even when my parents care for the other needs I have.  I dream of being a taxpayer contributing my share to this country that I love and that my most wonderful cousin died for in Iraq.  I hope to get a diploma and be the person he would be proud of and my big brother and other cousins who are members of the military services also would be proud.
But I am disappointed in my choices and feel betrayed by all the lies and the money spent.  Both candidates did this.  I will vote tomorrow and be proud of me.

I love my mom because...

I love my my mom even if i hate paige.
i love my mom if i hate doing what she says i have to. i love paige laugh yes on the other hand laugh paige is laugh not mom. i love paige if her mind is not running in circles. i love paige swimming laugh and she giggles. ilaugh love paige if her yes heart is too big and i listen laugh to a sad story. ilove mom/paige because she knew i me lived in here and she never stopped trying to get me out.

ocd and umbrellas

i have some very important news. i have very perhaps terrible ocd that is.obsessive.compulsive. disorder. i guess many people like me have this .   it causes life at times for me terrible mentionable embaressment. laugh .i me  emma have begun a yes umbrella free program i created in order to not have yes the terror of umbrellas rule my life. i walked into walmart and i looked at the umbrellas. i only touche for few time. mom said.1 and.before 2 came i walked away. ifelt.10000000000,dollars. i did today sadly i let me snap 1 umbrella but i have .school and work also. i am yes umbrella free good for me .

label

i have a real friend . he is perhaps neurotypical as i hear it called. i laugh at labels now because i perhaps have many. none me. i am emma is laugh . i perhaps people use labels to make control me my friend said. [ see him as me normal.